Topic: Poetry
Sometimes,
though less often now that I'm older,
I feel like a monster--as sure as Frankenstein
of my complete alienation from humanity.
It is probably a lie--I am as ordinary
as any Scotch-Irish-Dutch-German-Cherokee mutt
`round here, the same gray skin and crooked teeth
as the rest of my herd, the same weak movement.
I could make it so--become a monster,
build myself piece by piece into the stuff of old fiction,
the cauldron of story, rake the pit of my brain for ideas;
a scaly tail, like a favored feather boa, feels familiar.
Yes, I want wings too! Not the feathered froth of angels,
but real, human wings, naked with skin, alive--a maze of veins
apparent through the milky stretch, dry patches like ash-piles.
And I could move them--that's how far we've come.
I could roil my tail along the floor or aloft,
shaking it with fury and passion, an imposing figure
to be sure, behinded by such a monolith,
though nothing compared to the unfurling
of my massive wings, misplaced rib bones
and sculpted artificial kelson,
pressed with ass flesh, no doubt, it's always ass flesh,
some malleable magic in those fatty mounds.
I couldn't fly, of course, that's just going too far.
No science to support it--too much weight for wingspan,
marrowed bone-veins, a defiance of natural law.
Limbs can be mapped; attach a tail and a tiny tail-shaped
portion of the brain lights up, permanently decorated for Halloween,
tiny neural connections stitching out the path to adaptation.
Shelley's mistake was patching cadavers.
To live my alienation, instead of the cheap imitation
we call feeling--that is behind the desire for wings,
my want of a tail and coral horns, grown ever larger
as my magnificently ordinary brain connects with primordial
substance, something ancient in me recognizing
and integrating, creating, propelling my own evolution,
playing my own god; illuminating my own dark cowardice,
frail human form etched in relief on the floor of my brain.
Posted by Anna Belle
at 2:49 PM EDT
Fiercely independent, Dorothea Dix left her dysfunctional home in then upper Massachusetts (later to become Maine) at the age of twelve. Arriving in Boston and the security of her wealthy grandparents, Dix took advantage of the greater educational opportunity. While only fourteen years old, she started a successful school for young children in Worchester, which she ran for three years. Dolly, as she was known, started a dame school in 1821, when she was only 19 years old. She a strong disciplinarian, but was also known as a great beauty. The dame school placed a special emphasis on botany, an uncommon curriculum for girls at that time.